His Will

I have complained so much lately, many things have been taken away from me, it has caused pain, anger and some sort of bitterness in my soul. God has said NO and I am trying to accept His Will and the fact that He knows better than I do.

Last weekend, I cried my heart out to Him, I was desperate, I felt agony and I told HIm I needed an answer from Him. 24 hours He sent a lady my way to give me prophetic words and He answered each one of the questions I made the night before. I am unworthy! after all I said He still showed His mercy and Love my answering, He calmed my soul with His tenderness, and I cried in His arms like His little girl.

It was an unforgettable night. I still have His Words in my heart.

Tomorrow will be a great day! Some new friends He gave me and I are going to lead worship and praise time for kids :) I am excited and grateful for this BIG YES He sent me. :) I want to do ALL FOR HIM AND BECAUSE OF HIM.

Hurricane

have built a city here

Half with pride and half with fear

Just wanted a safer place to hide

I don’t want to be safe tonight

I need You like a hurricane

Thunder crashing, wind and rain

To tear my walls down

I’m only Yours now

I need you like a burning flame

A wild fire untamed

To burn these walls down

I’m only Yours now

“Hurricane” - Jimmy Needham

I have found...

... a love that lights up every room. ♥

I meant it

When I told you I wanted you to do ur will in my life.

When I asked you to show me what things are pleasing for you and which ones are not so I can get rid of them.

When I sang to you asking You to never let me go.

When I offered you my heart, soul, voice, hands and life.

My heart DIES WITHOUT YOU DAD...

Let it be a sweet sound :)

♫♪...Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen,

show me how to love like You have loved me...

...Break my heart from what breaks yours

everything I am is for Your Kingdom's cause...♪♫

My Father

has given me the chance to do what I love doing

the most again...

SING TO HIM.

I've been given the blessing to sing at church

with adults and kids

and my heart feels an explosion of

joy everytime I do it.

I want Him to use my voice to

touch lives and be heard

by His LOVING HEART.

♥

Resolutions :)

1. I resolve to love God with all my hear, mind and soul and ACT like I truly truly do.

2. I resolve to honor Him through my relationships.

3. I resolve to be the kind of woman that can truly inspire and love my earthly prince :) To be his help and support whenever he needs it.

4. I resolve to take good care of all material things God has given me.

5. I resolve to be an instrument that brings people to God.

Lord, I put this year in Your Hands.

Here I am.

I surrender to You.

I want to be the daughter you deserve.

I want to sing to you

worship you

praise you

serve you

Honor you.

Love you.

.

In the last couple of weeks I found it hard to get to sleep. I wanted to and I closed my eyes but I just couldn't quiet my heart and mind.
The fear of what is going to happen next year in my life wouldn't leave.
It was until a couple of days ago when I said: Lord, I'm nervous, anxious, fearful, worried, kind of sad but I want to lay it all down to you. I want to Trust you, I want to live in the CERTAINTY of your word and your Love.
Then I was able to sleep.

It was like a reminder for me:
The True peace that we all want and nees is only found in Jesus and His Love.

I don't know what's gonna happen next year but God won't leave me.

Insecurity with Physical Flaws

As I was reading Leslie's blogs God spoke to me A G A I N ...

Insecurity

is simply

an unhealthy focus on yourself,

rather than

a healthy focus on Jesus Christ

I am reading "Captivating" for the third time and it's amazing how God shows me something different every time I do.

Today I had a BIG SMILE on my face all day long.

I feel in peace.

I feel thankful.

I am blessed.

I wanna go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As Leslie said:

This is not your typical girl’s conference! It’s an intense, inspiring call to enter the battle for Truth. It is a challenge to die to self, lay everything on the altar before God, and enter the fray armed and ready to build the kingdom of God. If I could summarize the theme of this conference, it is captured in this powerful quote by Amy Carmichael:

“What is the secret to great living? Entire separation to Christ and devotion to Him. Thus speaks every man and woman whose life has made more than a passing flicker in the spiritual realm. It is the life that has no time for trifling that counts.”


The general sessions and the tracks seem so interesting ! I would absolutely love going there.
These are the things I need and I'm gonna start praying about it:

1. AMERICAN VISA
2. $200.oo for the conference
3. Get a flight to Colorado


If you read this, I wanna ask you to join me in prayer :) thank you.





God bless Leslie and her ministry :)

Wild vs. Wise

I'm a fan of the blog called GIRLS GONE WISE :)
it's one of the best things a girl can read, if she wants to know what God wants and plans for her.
Mary Kassian, the author of the blog, wrote 20 Points of Contrast between the Wild Thing of Proverbs 7 and a Girl-Gone-Wise.

It is so worth YOUR CLICK!

READ IT !

:)



http://www.marykassian.com/wp-content/uploads/girls-gone-wise-summary-chart.pdf

P.S the girl in the photo is my best friend :)

All The Beauty

That "beauty crisis" had abandoned me until last night. The thoughts of comparing myself to "beautiful girls" started to dig deeper in my soul causing me so much pain and anger.
The fear of being replaced in my boyfriend's life by a TRUE beauty made me say and do stupid things last night.
I didn't even want to talk to God, not because I was mad at him but because I couldn't understand why I lack so many things that other girls have. Those women who are never invisible, those women that get all the attention they want and even more.
I'm not one of them.
I showed up to work today wearing a big fake smile on my face. I came back home and while I was working on the tranlation of some things for church I put my music player on shuffle mode.
All kinds of songs came to my ears. Then it played. THE SONG God gave me today, by one of my favorite singers JJ HELLER

I know that she’s a liar when I look into her eyes
But I believe in every word she says
She’s out to start a fire burning everything I have
I can’t put it out ’cause it’s all inside my head
And then you sing
I hear you sing

You call me lovely
You call me friend
You call me out of death and let me try again
You call me beloved
You call me clean
Then you show me all the beauty that you see in me

I still hear her whisper and sometimes I hear her shout
You’re not good enough and you will never be
But if I focus on your singing I can start to tune her out
’Cause you came with a love to set me free

I know that you love me enough to die
And I will try to see the value that you place on me
And you say I’m worthy

Thank You Father

You know me so well...

Slow Fade

I don't know how long this song has been out but I heard it for the first time last Saturday and I loved it. It made me reflect on many things and it gave me the urge to share it here.



This past weekend God showed me and my boyfriend His love and grace in such AMAZING way again!
I have no doubt in my heart about Him wanting us together and the way He is working in our hearts to become more and more like Jesus.
If all young people out there want to have a happy marriage, they need to follow God's way and to surrender to His Will.
If we are grabbed by His hand on the first steps, He will NEVER LET GO.