Resolutions :)

1. I resolve to love God with all my hear, mind and soul and ACT like I truly truly do.

2. I resolve to honor Him through my relationships.

3. I resolve to be the kind of woman that can truly inspire and love my earthly prince :) To be his help and support whenever he needs it.

4. I resolve to take good care of all material things God has given me.

5. I resolve to be an instrument that brings people to God.

Lord, I put this year in Your Hands.

Here I am.

I surrender to You.

I want to be the daughter you deserve.

I want to sing to you

worship you

praise you

serve you

Honor you.

Love you.

.

In the last couple of weeks I found it hard to get to sleep. I wanted to and I closed my eyes but I just couldn't quiet my heart and mind.
The fear of what is going to happen next year in my life wouldn't leave.
It was until a couple of days ago when I said: Lord, I'm nervous, anxious, fearful, worried, kind of sad but I want to lay it all down to you. I want to Trust you, I want to live in the CERTAINTY of your word and your Love.
Then I was able to sleep.

It was like a reminder for me:
The True peace that we all want and nees is only found in Jesus and His Love.

I don't know what's gonna happen next year but God won't leave me.

Insecurity with Physical Flaws

As I was reading Leslie's blogs God spoke to me A G A I N ...

Insecurity

is simply

an unhealthy focus on yourself,

rather than

a healthy focus on Jesus Christ

I am reading "Captivating" for the third time and it's amazing how God shows me something different every time I do.

Today I had a BIG SMILE on my face all day long.

I feel in peace.

I feel thankful.

I am blessed.

I wanna go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As Leslie said:

This is not your typical girl’s conference! It’s an intense, inspiring call to enter the battle for Truth. It is a challenge to die to self, lay everything on the altar before God, and enter the fray armed and ready to build the kingdom of God. If I could summarize the theme of this conference, it is captured in this powerful quote by Amy Carmichael:

“What is the secret to great living? Entire separation to Christ and devotion to Him. Thus speaks every man and woman whose life has made more than a passing flicker in the spiritual realm. It is the life that has no time for trifling that counts.”


The general sessions and the tracks seem so interesting ! I would absolutely love going there.
These are the things I need and I'm gonna start praying about it:

1. AMERICAN VISA
2. $200.oo for the conference
3. Get a flight to Colorado


If you read this, I wanna ask you to join me in prayer :) thank you.





God bless Leslie and her ministry :)

Wild vs. Wise

I'm a fan of the blog called GIRLS GONE WISE :)
it's one of the best things a girl can read, if she wants to know what God wants and plans for her.
Mary Kassian, the author of the blog, wrote 20 Points of Contrast between the Wild Thing of Proverbs 7 and a Girl-Gone-Wise.

It is so worth YOUR CLICK!

READ IT !

:)



http://www.marykassian.com/wp-content/uploads/girls-gone-wise-summary-chart.pdf

P.S the girl in the photo is my best friend :)

All The Beauty

That "beauty crisis" had abandoned me until last night. The thoughts of comparing myself to "beautiful girls" started to dig deeper in my soul causing me so much pain and anger.
The fear of being replaced in my boyfriend's life by a TRUE beauty made me say and do stupid things last night.
I didn't even want to talk to God, not because I was mad at him but because I couldn't understand why I lack so many things that other girls have. Those women who are never invisible, those women that get all the attention they want and even more.
I'm not one of them.
I showed up to work today wearing a big fake smile on my face. I came back home and while I was working on the tranlation of some things for church I put my music player on shuffle mode.
All kinds of songs came to my ears. Then it played. THE SONG God gave me today, by one of my favorite singers JJ HELLER

I know that she’s a liar when I look into her eyes
But I believe in every word she says
She’s out to start a fire burning everything I have
I can’t put it out ’cause it’s all inside my head
And then you sing
I hear you sing

You call me lovely
You call me friend
You call me out of death and let me try again
You call me beloved
You call me clean
Then you show me all the beauty that you see in me

I still hear her whisper and sometimes I hear her shout
You’re not good enough and you will never be
But if I focus on your singing I can start to tune her out
’Cause you came with a love to set me free

I know that you love me enough to die
And I will try to see the value that you place on me
And you say I’m worthy

Thank You Father

You know me so well...

Slow Fade

I don't know how long this song has been out but I heard it for the first time last Saturday and I loved it. It made me reflect on many things and it gave me the urge to share it here.



This past weekend God showed me and my boyfriend His love and grace in such AMAZING way again!
I have no doubt in my heart about Him wanting us together and the way He is working in our hearts to become more and more like Jesus.
If all young people out there want to have a happy marriage, they need to follow God's way and to surrender to His Will.
If we are grabbed by His hand on the first steps, He will NEVER LET GO.

Will I ever ...

...be free from all my insecurities as a woman/girlfriend/teacher/singer/writer/friend?

the answer is ... N O

It will never happen. Why would I need Jesus then? How His love would beautify me? How His Mercy and forgiveness make me humble ? Why would I seek His face for? How His strength would be perfect in my weakness? Why would I return to HIM ?


As tears roll down my face I ask my Lord to remind me who I am in Him. I want to see myself the way He sees me.

I want to hear what Jesus thinks of me.

not what those thoughts in my mind shout.

"ALL HUMAN BEINGS

HAVE AN EMPTY SPACE

IN THEIR HEARTS

IN THE SHAPE OF

GOD."

Hoy

Tonight at the end of light
Tonight, I feel lonely
I thought I heard my heart stop beating
I long for you to hold me

I guess I feel like Eden
The twilight tried it’s best
Tonight I feel good and evil
Against my chest

My hunger led me to your hope
Until the end of this colder season

(allie Rogers lyrics)

new Allie Roger's album

http://www.noisetrade.com/allirogers

He knows about it...

One of my co-workers has lost two babies. 3 months ago she found out she was pregnant again but she refused to wear pregnancy clothes because she did not want to have a false illusion she said.

Last week, she was finally happy about her new baby. The doctor said everything was fine. Today we heard she had a miscarriage again.

I haven't talked to her yet cuz I'm trying to find the right words to say, I want God to talk through me, I want to be HIs Mouth for that hear ached woman.

I can't imagine how's that pain like...

I know God does

He gave His Only Son ....

I pray My King to give me the right words....

Music of My Heart

I imagine the first thing I did when I heard Your voice was dancing,

I can see myself singing to Your ear Father,

Whispering some Love Words the world will never know,

Offering You my first concert ...

Trying to sing the melodies that Your Love created for me,

Your smile gave me the first sense of harmony,

The drumming of your fingers taught me what rhythm was ...

I can't think of any other reason why everytime I sing to You

it feels like an explosion of love in my soul

too much for my human body to express

too deep for any language to say...

The strong vibration

of these vocal chords

is not enough

to release my passion for You...

I imagine the first time You told me You loved me

you did it with a song ...

Now let me Sing For You

EVERMORE...

That's it !

I happen to be girlfriend of a very God-passionate man and he's been really busy at church so I felt neglected... partly because the only time we spend actually together is on weekends and now that he's been so busy we hardly have time for us. This is helping me to get used to the new situation:

“Entrust your loved ones to Me; release them into My protective care. They are much safer with Me than in your clinging hands…When you release loved ones to Me, you are free to cling to My hand. As you entrust others into My care, I am free to shower blessings on them. My Presence will go with them wherever they go, and I will give them rest. This same Presence stays with you, as you relax and place your trust in Me. Watch to see what I will do. (based on Genesis 22:9-12, Ephesians 3:20 and Exodus 3:12)”

~Sarah Young, Jesus Calling

(I found it in Emily's blog btw)


I know that God is the center of everything and I'm happy to see the way he serves and gets involved in so many things.


Seeing the way he serves at church made me feel like I'm not doing anything relevant for God nor in neither out of church so I started feeling sad and useless.

My boyfriend helped me to see all things I can make to glorify God and that helped me a lot but it wasn't quite clear.

Today as I was reading a purpose driven life and talking to my King, I could draw some conclusions:

1. The thing I want to do at church to serve others is ...SING



yes, that's why I've been attending singing classes at church. I did sing in the other church where I used to go for 7 years and nothing made me more passionate and excited. I'm 100% sure God placed that passion and skill in me.



I will keep waiting for the right time when God says it's time for me to sing again. In the meantime, I will prepare myself spiritually and technically.




2. In one of my favorite blogs http//www.incourage.me/ I found a woman that is doing exactly what I wanna do for God!!! When I saw her bio I could see in words the desires of my heart. For the last 3 days I tried to figure it out and I started feeling frustrated so I find it amazing how God could use that blog and that woman http//www.chattingatthesky.com/ to clear things in my mind. I want to be : A WRITER, PHOTOGRAPHER, TEACHER WHO TALKS TO WOMEN ABOUT JESUS.

3. God wants to use our abilities, gifts, past experiences, personality and heart to HIS SERVICE and that's what I want to offer HiM.




4. He used imperfect people before, he can use me :)