My True Journey

His Will

2011-06-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

I have complained so much lately, many things have been taken away from me, it has caused pain, anger and some sort of bitterness in my soul. God has said NO and I am trying to accept His Will and the fact that He knows better than I do.

Last weekend, I cried my heart out to Him, I was desperate, I felt agony and I told HIm I needed an answer from Him. 24 hours He sent a lady my way to give me prophetic words and He answered each one of the questions I made the night before. I am unworthy! after all I said He still showed His mercy and Love my answering, He calmed my soul with His tenderness, and I cried in His arms like His little girl.

It was an unforgettable night. I still have His Words in my heart.

Tomorrow will be a great day! Some new friends He gave me and I are going to lead worship and praise time for kids :) I am excited and grateful for this BIG YES He sent me. :) I want to do ALL FOR HIM AND BECAUSE OF HIM.

Hurricane

2011-04-28T19:03:00.000-07:00

have built a city here

Half with pride and half with fear

Just wanted a safer place to hide

I don’t want to be safe tonight

I need You like a hurricane

Thunder crashing, wind and rain

To tear my walls down

I’m only Yours now

I need you like a burning flame

A wild fire untamed

To burn these walls down

I’m only Yours now

“Hurricane” - Jimmy Needham

I have found...

2010-06-29T14:38:00.000-07:00

... a love that lights up every room. ♥

I meant it

2010-06-02T12:20:00.000-07:00

When I told you I wanted you to do ur will in my life.

When I asked you to show me what things are pleasing for you and which ones are not so I can get rid of them.

When I sang to you asking You to never let me go.

When I offered you my heart, soul, voice, hands and life.

My heart DIES WITHOUT YOU DAD...

Let it be a sweet sound :)

2010-04-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

♫♪...Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen,

show me how to love like You have loved me...

...Break my heart from what breaks yours

everything I am is for Your Kingdom's cause...♪♫

My Father

has given me the chance to do what I love doing

the most again...

SING TO HIM.

I've been given the blessing to sing at church

with adults and kids

and my heart feels an explosion of

joy everytime I do it.

I want Him to use my voice to

touch lives and be heard

by His LOVING HEART.

♥

Resolutions :)

2010-01-01T15:59:00.000-08:00

1. I resolve to love God with all my hear, mind and soul and ACT like I truly truly do.

2. I resolve to honor Him through my relationships.

3. I resolve to be the kind of woman that can truly inspire and love my earthly prince :) To be his help and support whenever he needs it.

4. I resolve to take good care of all material things God has given me.

5. I resolve to be an instrument that brings people to God.

Lord, I put this year in Your Hands.

Here I am.

I surrender to You.

I want to be the daughter you deserve.

I want to sing to you

worship you

praise you

serve you

Honor you.

Love you.

.

2009-12-19T12:10:00.000-08:00

In the last couple of weeks I found it hard to get to sleep. I wanted to and I closed my eyes but I just couldn't quiet my heart and mind.
The fear of what is going to happen next year in my life wouldn't leave.
It was until a couple of days ago when I said: Lord, I'm nervous, anxious, fearful, worried, kind of sad but I want to lay it all down to you. I want to Trust you, I want to live in the CERTAINTY of your word and your Love.
Then I was able to sleep.

It was like a reminder for me:
The True peace that we all want and nees is only found in Jesus and His Love.

I don't know what's gonna happen next year but God won't leave me.

Insecurity with Physical Flaws

2009-11-25T21:09:00.000-08:00

As I was reading Leslie's blogs God spoke to me A G A I N ...

Insecurity

is simply

an unhealthy focus on yourself,

rather than

a healthy focus on Jesus Christ

I am reading "Captivating" for the third time and it's amazing how God shows me something different every time I do.

Today I had a BIG SMILE on my face all day long.

I feel in peace.

I feel thankful.

I am blessed.

I wanna go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-24T15:21:00.000-08:00

As Leslie said:

This is not your typical girl’s conference! It’s an intense, inspiring call to enter the battle for Truth. It is a challenge to die to self, lay everything on the altar before God, and enter the fray armed and ready to build the kingdom of God. If I could summarize the theme of this conference, it is captured in this powerful quote by Amy Carmichael:

“What is the secret to great living? Entire separation to Christ and devotion to Him. Thus speaks every man and woman whose life has made more than a passing flicker in the spiritual realm. It is the life that has no time for trifling that counts.”

The general sessions and the tracks seem so interesting ! I would absolutely love going there.
These are the things I need and I'm gonna start praying about it:

1. AMERICAN VISA
2. $200.oo for the conference
3. Get a flight to Colorado

If you read this, I wanna ask you to join me in prayer :) thank you.

God bless Leslie and her ministry :)

Wild vs. Wise

2009-11-12T17:15:00.000-08:00

I'm a fan of the blog called GIRLS GONE WISE :)
it's one of the best things a girl can read, if she wants to know what God wants and plans for her.
Mary Kassian, the author of the blog, wrote 20 Points of Contrast between the Wild Thing of Proverbs 7 and a Girl-Gone-Wise.

It is so worth YOUR CLICK!

READ IT !

:)

http://www.marykassian.com/wp-content/uploads/girls-gone-wise-summary-chart.pdf

P.S the girl in the photo is my best friend :)

All The Beauty

2009-10-23T20:48:00.000-07:00

That "beauty crisis" had abandoned me until last night. The thoughts of comparing myself to "beautiful girls" started to dig deeper in my soul causing me so much pain and anger.
The fear of being replaced in my boyfriend's life by a TRUE beauty made me say and do stupid things last night.
I didn't even want to talk to God, not because I was mad at him but because I couldn't understand why I lack so many things that other girls have. Those women who are never invisible, those women that get all the attention they want and even more.
I'm not one of them.
I showed up to work today wearing a big fake smile on my face. I came back home and while I was working on the tranlation of some things for church I put my music player on shuffle mode.
All kinds of songs came to my ears. Then it played. THE SONG God gave me today, by one of my favorite singers JJ HELLER

I know that she’s a liar when I look into her eyes
But I believe in every word she says
She’s out to start a fire burning everything I have
I can’t put it out ’cause it’s all inside my head
And then you sing
I hear you sing

You call me lovely
You call me friend
You call me out of death and let me try again
You call me beloved
You call me clean
Then you show me all the beauty that you see in me

I still hear her whisper and sometimes I hear her shout
You’re not good enough and you will never be
But if I focus on your singing I can start to tune her out
’Cause you came with a love to set me free

I know that you love me enough to die
And I will try to see the value that you place on me
And you say I’m worthy

Thank You Father

You know me so well...

Slow Fade

2009-10-19T18:36:00.000-07:00

I don't know how long this song has been out but I heard it for the first time last Saturday and I loved it. It made me reflect on many things and it gave me the urge to share it here.

This past weekend God showed me and my boyfriend His love and grace in such AMAZING way again!
I have no doubt in my heart about Him wanting us together and the way He is working in our hearts to become more and more like Jesus.
If all young people out there want to have a happy marriage, they need to follow God's way and to surrender to His Will.
If we are grabbed by His hand on the first steps, He will NEVER LET GO.

Will I ever ...

2009-10-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

...be free from all my insecurities as a woman/girlfriend/teacher/singer/writer/friend?

the answer is ... N O

It will never happen. Why would I need Jesus then? How His love would beautify me? How His Mercy and forgiveness make me humble ? Why would I seek His face for? How His strength would be perfect in my weakness? Why would I return to HIM ?

As tears roll down my face I ask my Lord to remind me who I am in Him. I want to see myself the way He sees me.

I want to hear what Jesus thinks of me.

not what those thoughts in my mind shout.

"ALL HUMAN BEINGS

HAVE AN EMPTY SPACE

IN THEIR HEARTS

IN THE SHAPE OF

GOD."

Hoy

2009-10-01T20:42:00.000-07:00

Tonight at the end of light
Tonight, I feel lonely
I thought I heard my heart stop beating
I long for you to hold me

I guess I feel like Eden
The twilight tried it’s best
Tonight I feel good and evil
Against my chest

My hunger led me to your hope
Until the end of this colder season

(allie Rogers lyrics)

new Allie Roger's album

http://www.noisetrade.com/allirogers

He knows about it...

2009-09-16T19:57:00.000-07:00

One of my co-workers has lost two babies. 3 months ago she found out she was pregnant again but she refused to wear pregnancy clothes because she did not want to have a false illusion she said.

Last week, she was finally happy about her new baby. The doctor said everything was fine. Today we heard she had a miscarriage again.

I haven't talked to her yet cuz I'm trying to find the right words to say, I want God to talk through me, I want to be HIs Mouth for that hear ached woman.

I can't imagine how's that pain like...

I know God does

He gave His Only Son ....

I pray My King to give me the right words....

Music of My Heart

2009-09-09T18:20:00.000-07:00

I imagine the first thing I did when I heard Your voice was dancing,

I can see myself singing to Your ear Father,

Whispering some Love Words the world will never know,

Offering You my first concert ...

Trying to sing the melodies that Your Love created for me,

Your smile gave me the first sense of harmony,

The drumming of your fingers taught me what rhythm was ...

I can't think of any other reason why everytime I sing to You

it feels like an explosion of love in my soul

too much for my human body to express

too deep for any language to say...

The strong vibration

of these vocal chords

is not enough

to release my passion for You...

I imagine the first time You told me You loved me

you did it with a song ...

Now let me Sing For You

EVERMORE...

That's it !

2009-09-02T19:27:00.000-07:00

I happen to be girlfriend of a very God-passionate man and he's been really busy at church so I felt neglected... partly because the only time we spend actually together is on weekends and now that he's been so busy we hardly have time for us. This is helping me to get used to the new situation:

“Entrust your loved ones to Me; release them into My protective care. They are much safer with Me than in your clinging hands…When you release loved ones to Me, you are free to cling to My hand. As you entrust others into My care, I am free to shower blessings on them. My Presence will go with them wherever they go, and I will give them rest. This same Presence stays with you, as you relax and place your trust in Me. Watch to see what I will do. (based on Genesis 22:9-12, Ephesians 3:20 and Exodus 3:12)”

~Sarah Young, Jesus Calling

(I found it in Emily's blog btw)

I know that God is the center of everything and I'm happy to see the way he serves and gets involved in so many things.

Seeing the way he serves at church made me feel like I'm not doing anything relevant for God nor in neither out of church so I started feeling sad and useless.

My boyfriend helped me to see all things I can make to glorify God and that helped me a lot but it wasn't quite clear.

Today as I was reading a purpose driven life and talking to my King, I could draw some conclusions:

1. The thing I want to do at church to serve others is ...SING

yes, that's why I've been attending singing classes at church. I did sing in the other church where I used to go for 7 years and nothing made me more passionate and excited. I'm 100% sure God placed that passion and skill in me.

I will keep waiting for the right time when God says it's time for me to sing again. In the meantime, I will prepare myself spiritually and technically.

2. In one of my favorite blogs http//www.incourage.me/ I found a woman that is doing exactly what I wanna do for God!!! When I saw her bio I could see in words the desires of my heart. For the last 3 days I tried to figure it out and I started feeling frustrated so I find it amazing how God could use that blog and that woman http//www.chattingatthesky.com/ to clear things in my mind. I want to be : A WRITER, PHOTOGRAPHER, TEACHER WHO TALKS TO WOMEN ABOUT JESUS.

3. God wants to use our abilities, gifts, past experiences, personality and heart to HIS SERVICE and that's what I want to offer HiM.

4. He used imperfect people before, he can use me :)

His real will

2009-09-01T20:09:00.000-07:00

As I post this

photo (of myself) with

an encouraging

bible verse on it ...

I fear ...

so I pray

God to take away my

fear

and thoughts that

do not come from

Him.

olvide llevar mi pregunta SOLO A TI

y hoy sufro por eso ...

Found

2009-08-29T10:15:00.000-07:00

Amazing love
Now what else shall I need
Your name brings life
It's more than the air I breathe

My world was changed
When Your love You gave for me
My purpose found
And all that You want for me

And I found myself in You

Take me to a place
Where I can see You face to face
And all I want to do
All I want to do
Is worship You

That Hillsong song has been in my

heart and mind for the last week...

In the middle of the pain

my body is right now

I find strength to sing and

worship my Maker and King

for I know He is my Healer....

Romans 8:28

2009-08-27T19:37:00.000-07:00

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose" (NVI)

I have to admit this Bible verse always was hard to believe for me. Perhaps because that's the same verse people recite to you when you're going through a painful or problematic situation. And in the middle of our pain, sin, sickness and worst suffering we don't get to quite UNDERSTAND THOSE WORDS.

Today, as I read day 25 of a Purpose Driven Life. I finally got it. It finally I understand what My King means in those words...

He's trying to form Jesus character in us and that's why we have to get through all the circumstances he lived on earth. The bad things do not necesarily come from God but He always allows each one of them. The difference is that He uses everything to accomplish His purpose. So when people think they are hurting you, God uses always turns it into something good for us to mature and be like His Son.

I'm having some hard days here... I'm sick, having problems at job and that makes me feel so frustrated and sad but this is the first time I REALLY CHOOSE TO HOLD ON TO HIS WORD.
I don't know how long will all this last but I'm certain that God is going to use everything and turn it into something good that meets His purpose for me.

I went to visit the doctor

2009-08-24T19:39:00.000-07:00

Last week I started feeling pain in my chest or... was it the breast? I couldn't really identify where the pain was coming from.I decided not to make a big deal out of it so I just tried to ignore it.
Yesterday the pain reminded me it was still there even when I tried to hide it with the happiness of being around the people I love.
Today, I could not handle it anymore so I went to the doctor.

He said I MUST LOSE 66 POUNDS
yes, 66
60 plus 6
30 plus 30
50 plus 10
it does not matter how you put it, it is still A BIG NUMBER.

The overweight has caused the cartilage in my ribs to be swollen and that's when I feel that terrible pain.
In addition, my blood pressure is not normal for a person my age.
So it came to my mind, a passage of one of the books I'm reading:

The person who weights considerably more than he should, and whose heart has to pump blood through miles of additional fat cells and clogged arteries will have to pay the price for that additional train on his system and will have no grounds for asking , "How could God do this to me?"

so the only guilty of this is no other than...

MYSELF.

what have I done to the temple

where The Holy Spirit abides?

The doctor prescribed to me some pills to lose weight and it all will start tomorrow. I pray God to have the strength and will in Him to do this for my own good and let's be hones, for my self-esteem as well.

I hope I can make it.

Loving others

2009-08-18T20:11:00.000-07:00

Day 16 in the book I'm reading explains why loving others is the second most important thing.

How in the end it won't matter how many degrees, cars or possessions we have but what really matters is THE TIME WE SPEND WITH THE ONES WE LOVE.

Ironically, last weekend my boyfriend was talking to me about his concern on my relationship with others. He made me see how important is not to let friendship die and take care of the ones that have been with us through good and bad times. I gotta admit I did NOT have the best reaction. Now I know it wasn't really him but it was God talking to my heart through his mouth and letting me know the things I gotta fix.

It is so amazing to have a godly man by my side. One who really loves Him and really wants our realationship to make our Lord smile.

Dad:

there are certain wounds in my soul related to my relationship with others, you know them well I ask you in Jesus name to pour your healing love on me. The love that will make my pain, insecurities and personal issues go away so I can relate to others easily.

I want to live that purpose I was designed for.

I'm yours.

Under attack

2009-08-14T18:52:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I found myself in a very weird and painful situation.
I was the object of attack of an anonymous message in one of the "social" networks I'm in.
Someone used by the devil himself sent word right to my heart. As I read them I could feel how each word was slowly ripping off my delicate soul.
I never thought someone could hate me so much and think all kind of disgusting things about me and about my family.
My first reaction was to cry. A lot. Then I went to my bedroom and cried on my Heavenly Father's arms and also talking to my boyfriend on the phone and hearing how he reminded me of how much God loves me and how HE's got everything under control helped a lot.

I chose not to do anything back, not to ATTACK back, not to take revenge and try to fix things on my own.

I layed all my pain, frustration, shame on my Savior.

14 hours later I could see His Hands working on my favor and He impressed me once more.

It feels so good to know that this fight is not mine is His.

photo by me

"Focus on giants—you stumble.
Focus on God—your giants tumble".
Facing Your Giants by Max Lucado

Worship

2009-08-10T17:29:00.000-07:00

Everything you do to please

The Lord is an act of WORSHIP.

Today, as I was reading Day 8th. I thougth of all the things I do on a daily basis and how I never saw them as an act of worship. After all he's done and after all the love My Father has given me the least I can do is live to please Him and to make HIm Smile.

It is hard sometimes cuz we are all human but He sees our hearts like no one else does.

A driven purpose life

2009-07-29T18:35:00.001-07:00

Next Sunday a new campain will start at church based on this great book:

I have always wanted to read it and for any reason I never get to do it. So this time I'm ready to immerse myself in what God says about my purpose on earth. :)

Another great thing about it is that my lovely boyfriend, which is now in the same church as I am, is gonna read it to so it is fantastic to be in sync with God and having the love of your life be on the same page as you.

Only You Lord have restored all things in me. Last week I took a look back to July 2008 and it was way different from now. I was in a process of disciple and desert. Now I feel like you've made everything new and I genuinely feel like I am trying to follow your will and be filled with your word.

tHaNK yOU fAtHeR !!!

It's You

2009-07-21T18:16:00.000-07:00

It's you that I have to run to
when I'm feeling insecure
It's you the one with the perfect
words to heal my heart
It's You Lord and only You...
who reveals my true identity
and the beauty that I miss
when I'm thinking about my
flaws.
It's You the reason why my
voice is broken when I sing
It's Your voice that wakes
me up with a sunshine made
just for me.
It's You my Beloved
My True love that I give all
the Glory to.

Fragile

2009-07-08T17:54:00.000-07:00

I know you're not like him

I know you wouldn't hurt me the way he does

but today I need to hear you

and feel you close to me

because my concept of "father" seems to

fade away when his bitter words cross

the fragile walls of my heart and his

violent hands tear apart the softness

of my feminity.

God Speaks

2009-06-29T11:29:00.000-07:00

He knows the things that catch our attention so he uses them
to talk to us.
I've been listening to what my Father wants from me and
I'm humbled by the fact He takes time to listen and to reveal
His will to me.

There's nothing like
the time alone
with you Father.

He talked to me

2009-06-25T17:48:00.000-07:00

After reading the whole twilight series, I'm reading this book "La Cabaña", I looked it up in English but I did not get any results....

The thing is that, I haven't finished reading it but I gotta say there's something special about it.

Let me tell explain why, like 2 nights ago I had a problem with my father so I cried a lot. At midnight I opened this book and God talked to me through the pages I was passing, to the point that I had to stop reading and cry out to God.

My hands covered my mouth for a long time so my broken voice wouldn't wake my parents up.

I had a special night with my Heavenly Father because of that.

Last night also, while reading, I had to spot and thank God again .... because some lines said something like :

SOMETIMES WHEN PAIN IS THE ONLY THING YOU CAN SEE, YOU CAN'T SEE ME, BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN I'M NOT THERE.

So, I truly believe God can talk to our hearts through many things and BOOKS :)

Isn't he AMAZING?!

Today

2009-06-17T16:51:00.000-07:00

it's Father's Day, and I already hug my dad and told him that I love him very much. Then my heart was filled with the desire to do the same to my Heavenly Father, the One that never lets me down.

Father:

You're the BEST. No matter how much everyone can love their father on earth and how much they can say their father is the best. The only Truth is that there is no FATHER like YOU.

You were with me even before I was born. You were with me in those dark nights when loneliness knock my bedroom door and I felt abandoned by my parents.

You were with me through that violent, twisted and depressing teen age years.

You have seen me grow, cry, laugh and lear the easy and the hard way.

Your love is beyond any description this child of yours could possibly make.

Happy Father's Day to the PERFECT FATHER!!!

I still can't believe you call me YOURS ♥

and hide me under your wing.

My king

2009-06-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

I always lack the perfect words to talk or express His Perfection so this video helped me a lot!
I couldn't help crying.
It describes all the amazing things my King is.
If you haven't watched this before, I highly encourage you to do so.
You won't regret.

:)

Are you buying it ?

2009-06-15T17:49:00.000-07:00

I watched this video in one of my favorite blogs and I decided to share it here. It really makes you think and reflect about the things in your heart.

Last nigt, God made me think about how I should forgive anyone who has hurt me if I want my prayers to be listened. Sometimes people, even our own friends damage our heart and if we don't lay it all in God's hands, these wound will take our spiritual health away and won't ler our words and requests be heard by God.

prayer

2009-06-08T14:43:00.000-07:00

Last night at church, the pastor talked about how a life of prayer does not mean to be kneeling right next to your bed for 5 hours. A life of prayer means to be aware of God's presence in every area of our lives and MAKE HIM PART of everything. Invite him to every room in our hearts so He can show his perfect will.

I'm trying to make this a reality in my life, a lifestyle.

I don't want to let God in a corner, forgotten and ignored. After all things he's done and given me , that would be so ungrateful and yet THAT is exactly what I do when I do things I know He won't like or when I let the chains pull me back to sin again.

Lord:

In the midst of all the confusion in my head about my job and those ghosts called fears that haunt me.... I know you're there.

I confess that I belong to you and I ask you to open my heart and ears so I can listen to your

sweet voice.

Overwhelmed...

2009-04-27T19:14:00.000-07:00

... by how The Lord moves every piece in my life in His perfect time ...

I've cried a lot during the last days ....

These gratitude tears feel so warm inside...

I am so blessed that I feel like my heart is going to explode!!!

[ The girl in the photo is my friend Angie, but I thought it shows the feeling I have inside]

Singing with Rachael

2009-04-20T17:48:00.001-07:00

Let's say that ... instead of complaining of the stress I had to deal with today, the fear that some words planted in my soul, and the pain I feel in my legs right now....

I CHOOSE TO SING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS

BECAUSE HIS HEART WILL ALWAYS BE MY HOME

AT HOME I'M SAFE, I'M LOVED, I'M FORGIVEN, I FIND REST

I'M NOTHING BUT DAD'S LITTLE GIRL AGAIN...

NEEDING HIS EMBRACE.

[your hands

are always open

to catch me

when I fall

your eyes

have seen

beyond the things

I'm guilty of]

It's been almost a month...

2009-04-07T16:07:00.000-07:00

...since I went to a retreat called "Captivating".
It is inspired on the book by Stasi Eldredge

God talked to me in such an amazing way that I wanted to stay like that for ever.
He showed me my past and present wounds, the wounds that caused me to act in a false identity and do things I wasn't designed for.

It was not like any other retreat. It was different. I discovered my feminity and my identity.

When I came back home, I wanted to let every woman around me the things I learned, and for some reason they didn't want to listen or they didn't pay attention. My sister was the only one who listened carefully and I felt so good about sharing it.

The next days, God brought to my life some women who opened their heart to me and told me their lives in 5 minutes. I could see things I could not have seen before. I could see their wounds and how their pain was causing them to hurt others.

I told them words that only God could put in my mouth and I'm positive it was HIM, not me.

Now, I feel like I'm in a process, and I want God to be the only one who answers the question : am I captivating?
and I know the answer now.

:)

Basically ...

2009-03-04T18:29:00.000-08:00

I changed my layout and went back to my last blog title...
because this is going to be my DEVOTIONAL BLOG :)
So, you're free to choose to read

MY DEVOTIONAL BLOG
MY TEACHING BLOG or
MY PERSONAL BLOG...

:D

Am I becoming addicted to blogging?
mmm
yup.!
:D

The personal blog is going to be in SPANISH

and it's UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

Isn't It true?

2009-03-02T16:37:00.000-08:00

A woman's sorrow are always connected to someone ?

"That's because God gave us a special heart to relationships. There's a need in our hearts to have things under control and to never feel lonely. Our vulnerability makes us unique and when we tried to hide it we are fighting against the nature of our souls." Captivating.

I choose not to fight it but Oohh Lord I want to control it.

Having your heart locked for many years and then just open it in a second can lead to an explosion of colors, words and feelings you didn't even know were buried inside.

Did you see my tears today?

Did you hear my voice?

"surrender" ... You whispered gently ..

25 semanas (o eso conte)

2009-02-24T18:12:00.000-08:00

25 semanas
en las que he
logrado:

AMARTE
QUERERTE
BESARTE
EXTRAÑARTE
SENTIRTE
OIRTE
HABLARTE
SUSPIRARTE

LLORARTE

ADMIRARTE
SOÑARTE

T E A M O y te lo gritan

MI CORAZON
MI ALMA
MIS OJOS
MIS MANOS
MI OLOR
MIS LAGRIMAS
MIS RISAS
MIS SUEÑOS
MI RESPIRACION
MI SANGRE
MI SER

MI PIEL
MIS PALABRAS
MIS FOTOGRAFIAS
MIS LLAMADAS
MIS CELOS
MIS CAPRICHOS
MIS CANCIONES

Heavenly Father: You know how much I thank you

for bringing him into my life

I think you like to see how

he makes me smile and dream

Let me be the woman he needs

so together

we can be what you want us

to be.

Around one o'clock

2009-02-20T20:08:00.000-08:00

I wrote this :

He sings to me when the wind blows my hair

He sings to me when the sun light comes through my window

He sings to me when I'm asleep

He sings to me everytime that my heart beats...

Oh my Beloved! Let me hear your songs

And I will sing them back to You.

Tres Cosas Que Toda Mujer Anhela

2009-02-17T17:51:00.000-08:00

>Que la enamoren<

>Jugar un rol irremplazable en una gran aventura<

>Revelar belleza<

El vio que los ojos de [....] estaban llenos de lagrimas.

"Estas llorando?"

"Soy una mujer del desierto", respodio desviando su rostro.

"Pero sobre todo, soy una mujer"

The alchemist

Worth the wait

2009-02-09T17:32:00.000-08:00

She's 44

She feels lonely

She gave up the dream of a wedding, a marriage and kids...

She thought "those stories" were not for her

She told God that she was going to lay it all down on Him and

that she decided to be content with the things and blessing He had given to her.

One week later, she met this man

Honorable, a seeker of God's presence, mature, very serious and true to himself, a wise man who has known how to manage the wealth God has given him.

He instantly fell in love with her.

She still can't believe it.

She says this is even more that she had dreamed of.

And there she goes telling every little thing alive of the WONDERS OF GOD and how when you surrender to HIm , He really IS IN CONTROL.

Hearing her story this morning made me cry because I had felt exactly the same way until God brought to my life the man I had dreamed about (and even more)...

It feels so good to know that God moves every piece of your life, it makes you wanna cry to see His mercy, His good desires for His children...

He does even more than what we expect ! and if it's taking too long ... just wait and see...

You'll be another one who says : IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT.

Love woke me up this morning...

2009-02-04T18:34:00.000-08:00

...with a memory

Love came and whispered a story

That awakened a dream

Imagine a beautiful castle

And a beautiful king

He left the comfort of his throne

To fight for victory

I am a dreamer

Take me higher

Open the sky up

Start a fire

I believe

Even if it's just a dream

Love woke me up this morning

And I ran to see

The king in the winners' circle

On the horse he won for me

Lord, You are Able

Lord, YOU listen to every single word

Lord, You amaze me ...

Lord, You answer

...(tears)...

MY PERFECT VALENTINE

2009-02-02T17:58:00.000-08:00

TAKE A LOOK....http://setapartgirl.com/article-FEB-myperfectvalentine.html

current mood:
sad
there's nothing worse than seeing your father sick, worried and sad
and your sister crying
and you know you can't do anything...

Lord
hAVE mercy of
This family

What have I done...

2009-01-25T12:51:00.000-08:00

(with my [live]journal? it was set to private, private as in "I'm the only one allowed to read" and I'm not using it anymore :S I guess I will write it down right here)

remember those walls I built?
they are tumbling down
they didn't even make a sound

I found a way to let you in

but I never really had a doubt

standing in the light of your halo

I've got my angel now

It's like I've been awaken
every rule I had to breaking
it's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Every where I look now

I'm sorrounded by your embrace

I can see your halo

y0u're everything I need and more

it's writtten all over your face

I can see your halo

Hit me like a ray of sun

burning through my darkest night

you're the only one I want

and I'm addicted to your light

I swore never fall again

but this don't even feel like falling

I can see your halo
I've got my angel now...

A special request

2009-01-19T17:37:00.000-08:00

If you believe in the healing power of Jesuschrist...
I'm gonna ask you to take 30 seconds to help me pray so He can restore my health.
I've been having some health issues and I'm seriously not feeling good and I'm scared and worried.

I read about the symptoms on internet and it does not sound good AT ALL.

I need to have an ultrasound which is going to let me know exactly what this is.

Dear Father:

Have mercy of me,
I know that all this might be my fault and I am really sorry ... please FORGIVE ME.
You know how much it gets me to be sick.
Take all control of my body
Just say the words and I shall be healed.
In Jesus Name...

Si ves a mi amado...

2009-01-14T17:35:00.000-08:00

...hazle saber

que estoy enferma de Amor por el

y que no puedo dormir

Mis ojos se secan de llorar

y no lo encuentro en ningun lugar

y no lo siento como ayer...

Tan acostumbrada estoy a El,

que hasta mi carne siente su ausencia

Vuelve!

que el invierno ya paso

dejame escuchar tu voz

paseando por el jardin

Who I am Makes a Difference

2009-01-12T18:38:00.001-08:00

Just watch
:)
I already know who I'm giving the blue ribbon to
:)
ohh the story of how I got to see this video is in my other blog
:)
feel free to take a look

I'm just...

2009-01-07T17:52:00.001-08:00

...like every woman out there...
Lately, I've found myself with some extra pounds and that makes me feel so insecure and ugly.
It's my fault, I HAVE ZERO SELF CONTROL

Last Sunday at church, the pastor asked us to set some goals not only in the spiritual or financial areas but also in the physical one. Guess what I chose..... mmhmm WEIGHT

Is it normal to even be afraid that my boyfriend won't like me anymore for gaining those pounds? He hasn't said anything like that , but like any other woman (same phrase again) I need to feel beautiful.

I found this in one of the sites I visit very often :
"When I look at you… I love what I see! If you could grasp how beautiful you are in my eyes, then you would never feel insecure again. Your Prince (Psalm 45:11) "

yes, it is absolutely true! and I do believe it, but it is my JOB to do all things I can to be Ok, pretty and healthy.

so, I'm gonna do my job.

TODAY, I MAKE commitment to myself (period)

Recap

2008-12-31T17:09:00.000-08:00

I got the idea from http://oneminutewriter.blogspot.com/

I'm loving that blog :)

2008 Recap:

I think my previous entry pretty much describes my feelings about 2008 and all the events it brought to my life.

It was not a good year and I did not make any resolution the first day of this year. I am a resolutions person but I was so sad, depresed and angry that I thought I could live my life just waiting for things to come and living it THE WAY I THOUGHT IT WAS BETTER, without ever consider God's thoughts or Word.

What were the results? you may ask...

well, a year full of failure, sadness, loss, discipline from God (just like a loving Father does)...

And I just realized that I always asked God to give me a car and he gave me the exact amount of money I needed for it...

What did I do with it ? you may ask

hmm everything, except buying the car

I let 2008 be a year of BAD DECISIONS.

The good thing is that God is so good to me that He was with me along the desert, His mercy never failed.

He is letting me finish this year with my eyes wide open, my heart trusting in Him, my soul longing for His presence, with my family together, having a great relationship with my true friends, hired in a new school, IN LOVE WITH A GREAT MAN...

Heavenly Father:

Thank you.

It's finally over.

2008 is finally over and I want to place 2009 in your hands once again.

From the very first minute of the year I want to be close to you.

I don't want to start this new year partying or with fire works and calls from people... I want to start this year ON MY KNEES, giving YOU ALL THE GLORY FOR THE GREAT THINGS THAT ARE COMING CAUSE WE'RE GONNA WALK HAND IN HAND AND ALSO FOR THE NOT SO GOOD THINGS THAT MAY COME CAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL BE WITH ME.

Tears

2008-12-23T11:57:00.000-08:00

I woke up in tears today.

Tears of repentance

Tears of regret

All these images came to my head, images of this year, images of all the wrong decisions I made, all the mistakes I could avoid and I didn't...

all those times God talked to me and tried to draw me back to Him and I just said "NO"...

It just hit me.

I failed like never before this year.

I was my Father's dissapointment.

I walked away from Him.

I Shut the door to His Love and Purpose and let myself be ruled by other gods.

Father:

As I lay on my bed, today Deceber 23rd 2008, I just realized of how WRONG I'VE BEEN ALL YEAR LONG.

All those times I offended you and let you down.

I am sorry that I forced you to get my attention through pain and loss.

I am sorry that I did not want to listen You.

I am sorry that I did not appreciate your LOVE and Mercy

I am sorry that I let my heart break into pieces.

I am sorry to have been looking for love in all wrong places.

I am sorry that I let my flesh rule my life.

I am sorry for not taking care of all the blessings I had, now I see it....

ohhh Father....

I am deeply sorry...

FORGIVE ME FATHER...

For 12 months I was blind, my sin made me blind

I have been wasting my time so far from you.

Make me whole again.

I can't believe how after all my sin, you still forgive me and give me another chance, a new beginning and You impressed me with things I never expected to have

Lord, these months have been so hard and I've cried because I've been feeling hurt, angry, dissilussioned and bitter but I never cried like today.

Father, Now I see

I finally see....

How I long to live for You

and start this new year taken by you Hand

Trusting in Your word

Resting in You

Loving you

as You've been loving me...

Last night

2008-12-22T10:19:00.000-08:00

I went to the young adults group of my church. The youth pastor talked about "gifts". How we anxiously wait for gifts these days but we tend to forget about the most precios gift of all ..."salvation" and the right we have as children of God to enter his presence by Jesus blood.

The Father gave what He loved THE MOST and sometimes we just take that gift for granted.

how sad...

I want to have that in mind, not only this time of the year but every day of my life.

Here are some shots of last night

:)

youth pastor :)

and this is his wife singing... (I soo want to be like her )

Another thing that made me cry was when he said that we should finish this year giving God all the glory even when we did not have THE BEST YEAR , even when we felt like it would never end and it was full of pain.

It wasn't the best year for me, specially the last 6 months but I'm certain that I would NOT BE STANDING HERE IF IT WASN'T FOR MY FATHER'S LOVE AND MERCY.

I will dedicate 09 to Him from the very beginning.

He is...

2008-12-16T23:11:00.000-08:00

my portion
my maker
my husband
my savior
my hope
my brother
my helper
my healer
my refiner
my purifier
my lord
my master
my example
my teacher
my sheperd
my keeper
my leader
my feeder
my resting place
my drink
my peace
my wisdom
my righteousness
my sanctification
my redemption
my all in all

From my Journal

2008-12-15T19:50:00.000-08:00

Taken from my Journal, and for some reason I decided to put it here too...

I've heard how some people say that they are sorrounded by a hundred people yet they feel so lonely.
Today, I experienced the opposite thing.
I was sorrounded by no one.
My mom was watching tv in her room.
My dad was disappointed about a mini stereo he bought and then he did not like, so he was there sitting in the living room couch, trying to figure out what to do and then he fell asleep.
My sister is working.
My other sister was out with her boyfriend.
I tried to call my boyfriend and he did not answer the phone. (I think he was busy, or that's what I want to believe)
then, I tried calling 3 of my friends and no one answered!
so I was like....
staring at the seiling.

I grabbed a book I just bought and started reading....

I felt how my eyes could not hold the tears for one more second.

I cried.

There. alone. in silence. with a book in my hands.

so I said :
" Jesus, you're the only one here, it's just you and me...
why do I feel so lonely today? I ask you to take control of my emotions
please, comfort me ...
give some peace to this soul of mine..."

Then I kept reading
I guess Max Lucado's creative and unique way of writing really comes from God.

After reading a chapter, I must say that I did not feel a supernatural company or that the room was filled with a special presence...
but I KNEW , I chose to BELIEVE (that's what Max says you should do) that God was right there with me... understanding and seeing His daughter in the middle of a very confusing day, feeling so lonely and so needy of His embrace.

As I write this, I feel like crying again.... but I BELIEVE HE HEARD MY PRAYER.

ohh, this made me smile today:
1. Angela Powell following my blog
2.---->Quote from http://www.photoblog.com/tastemyink/2008/12/13/"And thank you to the people who actualy care to read my blog and care for me. saiimemories and Zephyrnix make me smile! " SAIIMEMORIES is my nick in PHOTOBLOG :)

Metanoia

2008-12-13T10:26:00.000-08:00

Sunday nights at my church, there's a gathering for young (working) people.
I haven't attended like in months and I just found the podcast so it made me really happy.
http://www.gcast.com/u/fevidacultura/main
The name of this serie was "metanoia", metanoia means "mind change".
I listened to the whole series yesterday, each preaching lasts like an hour but it did not feel that long.
I guess when you're listening to something that shows you what God wants for you, it does not matter how long it takes.

The last message of that serie was about "God's correction" and I gotta say it was my favorite... sounds weird, I know... cause none of us like being corrected and going through the necessary discipline. I don't take discipline with a huge smile on my face, I've suffered and cried, specially this year but I think I just got to the understanding that HIs correction brings life to me.

Ohh how stubborn I am...
Now I see...

Inpired on something I listened today

2008-12-12T18:27:00.000-08:00

Solo pienso en los chances,
que me has dado tu Señor...
Tantas oportunidades,
que he vivido hasta hoy ...
Te adoro Dios.

...Here I am...
all this burden
that makes me scared to come before you...
You know me
You know all things I've done this year
all those bad decisions
all failures
all victories
the tears I've cried
the things I did not do and wanted to
it all has made me weary..

Only You can fix a life like mine

Don't know why

2008-12-11T16:32:00.000-08:00

I feel nostalgic about the church I used to attend.
I suddenly miss the people there and all the things I used to do , like singing and other activities.
In addition to that, I feel this "guilt" feeling and I'm trying to figure out why that is.

:(

Question of Previous Week

2008-12-06T19:16:00.000-08:00

In one of my favorite blogs, there's a weekly question to answer and I think that's a pretty good idea. A great starting point for an entry and something that really makes you stop and think for a while.

Last week's question was :

What is the best gift you've ever been given?

When I read the questions I thought it was going to be easy to give an answer but now that I'm quietly thinking aboutl it... It's kind of difficult to mention one only cause I think there are some things which make me feel amazingly thankful.

Ok
OK
I made up my mind ...

THE BEST GIFT I'VE EVER BEEN GIVEN IS GOD'S TRUE LOVE.

where would I be without it? lost
what would I do without it? nothing
How would I feel without it? empty and worthless

You, lover of my soul, are my biggest gift.

I'm impressed

2008-12-01T22:15:00.000-08:00

..for the way in which my boyfriend listens to one of his friends so patiently and always trying to give the best advice possible.

That's like a huge human need. Having someone listen to you with all attention and be truly caring about you is something we all want.

So I go like,,
Lord, thanks for the caring man I have by my side. Thanks because he is my friend and not only my love.

This weekend with him was so nice that I got really inspired...
take a look

http://saiistories.livejournal.com/

Filled with Gratitude

2008-11-28T18:05:00.000-08:00

Once more
He has amazed me!
I knew he was going to bless me today but I did not expect that blessing to be so beyond my human understanding.
This verse came to mind just now as I'm writing this...

He is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine
Ephesians 3:20

So there I go, asking Him to bless me and to do His way on me and there it goes my tiny little human mind thinking "small things".
He made my day and put the biggest smile on my face.

SMALL ENTRY
BIG GRATITUDE
HUGE SMILE
LOVE TEARS

These Words ....

2008-11-26T13:24:00.000-08:00

are the only ones that keep me going ...

My Beloved Bride,

The time is now to believe my promises and trust me to shelter you from the storms that will come in this life. I am truly the Knight in shining armor your heart longs for. I am the one who has already given His life for you. I know your hidden fears, but you must learn to look to Me my beloved bride when life hits hard. I am the rock on which you can stand when all around you seems to be sinking sand. Stand on my Word and hide it in your heart and you will never sink in hopelessness again.

Certainly hopelessness has been part of me for the last months and the only true thing to hang on from is the word of my King. My fortress. My Rock.
He says He won't waste a single tear and it is just incredible how he's seen it all.
I may hide from my family or friends but He knows exactly what I'm going through.
I feel like sinking in my own feelings, guilt, past, needs and emotions.
Father, let me stand firm on YOU and YOU only.

Love Stories

2008-11-20T20:05:00.000-08:00

Every girl's dream:
to be resued by a prince in a shining armor and live happily ever after.

I must say it's one of my dreams as well and being in a relationship now has put me in the position of asking God constantly to keep the throne of my heart.
I found an article in http://www.setapartgirl.com about romantic fulfillment, and I gotta say it just brought me back to the need of making Jesus my First Prince.
Here's a fragment of it:

"Earthly love can quickly become the central focus in our lives. That's why we so easily get our hearts broken and our dreams shattered , because they are wrapped up in the wrong love story. Earthly love becomes an idol that consumes our heart, emotions, time and focus. All the while the perfect love story with the most heroic Prince of all time is right there waiting for us"

So, I though ... ok, it's not only me, I'm not the crazy one, I'm not the only one in danger of doing such a thing.
I also loved the way Leslie speaks about her husband and Jesus:

"Eric, with all his amazing qualities, could never meet the deepest needs inside my heart the way my true Prince has"

so THAT I need to bear in mind and heart.
These inspiring woman really gets to my heart and she's such a great instrument in God's hands.
I guess God always finds ways to send the right word at the exact time I need it.

Lover of my soul:
Thanks for sending your word to me. I am willing to listen to what's best for me.
I'm sure there's no fulfillment in the relationship with my boyfriend and today I ask you to take control of my emotions and feelings.
I do want to love him and I actually love him very much already but I don't want him to be the focus of my life.
Something curious happenend with him... My relationship with you Lord, has improved since I'm with him and I see it as a great blessing.
I'm yours.

thankful?

2008-11-19T17:03:00.000-08:00

I found this challenge in a great blog :

Even when here in my country we don't celebrate thanksgiving I thought it was a great idea to take novemberas a month to thank God for all the things He is, does and gives to me .I've always been a quiz fan so I took the "how thankful are you" one and here's my result :

You Are 77% Thankful

You are a very thankful person - for both the big and little things in life.

Your optimism is powerful. Getting through hard times is fairly easy for you.

How Thankful Are You?

Not too bad, I think... :)

I intend to be more greatful

A love song to my Beloved (kari Jobe's)

2008-11-18T17:09:00.000-08:00

I found this amazing singer thru myspace. http://www.karijobe.com

I can't help crying whenever I listen to this song, it describes the way I feel these days about Jesus.

The more I seek you, The more I find you

The more I find you,The more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand

lay back against you

feel your heart beat

this love is so deep

is more that I can stand

I melt at your peace

it's overwhelming

Lover of my Soul:

When I start feeling like something on earth completes me or makes me who I really am. I just have to kneel and feel your presence to prove myself wrong.

When I miss someone and feel like my world is gonna end without them, I just have to feel your embrace reminding myself that there is no greater love that yours.

There's no such peace like the one you let me breathe when I'm with you, feeling your mercy and singing to you.

Open door

2008-11-15T13:05:00.000-08:00

I have set before you, an open door, an no man can shut it.

Rev. 3:8

God only has the power of opening and shuting doors. A door was shut in my life "apparently" leaving damage and pain but God has open a new door for me, everything around me seems to be confirmation of it.
Yesterday, I went to a pastor's wife for advice on how to definetly close that door , break all sentimental attachments and more important how to forgive those who hurt me and just close that chapter in my life.
She talked for a while and I could feel how every word she was saying was getting right into my spirit and my soul.
It was a confirmation of the things God had been telling me for the last days, I need to be humble again and I need to heal my relationship with my authorities. She told me God is giving the chance to start a new STORY for He loves me much.

I thank God for the life of that lady who was used by Him.

Then, on the devotional, God spoke directly to my heart
this is what He told me:

" I will restore and give you back the things you've lost... but the things you lost are not the things you think you lost, what you really lost is your intimacy with me and I want you to have it again. You DID finish your journey in that other place and now you got to start a new one with my presence.

Father: thank you so much
lover of my soul, there's nothing like YOUR VOICE AND YOUR EMBRACE.

Naaman like

2008-11-13T19:47:00.000-08:00

2nd day at my new job, I got there really early so I grabbed a Beth Moore's book from my purse and began to read...
Just moments before I had been expressing my feelings and thoughts to my Father, suprisingly the chapter I read in that book was really related to what I had said to Him.
It hit me right away.
He was talking to me.

Only He knows what I told him, the exact words I used and the fear that was taking me over minutes before reading the book.

Like 10 mintutes later, all teachers were supposed to gather in a room for a devotional and here it goes again, His word hit me ...

The pastor shared a bit about Naaman and I found my face covered in tears..

THIS WAS WHAT HIT ME:
Naaman, full of leprosy, full of pride, wanting to be healed, wanting the "best" things, longing for being in the "best" places. He knew there were better places for him to be healed but he did ignore that it wasn't about physical healing only, it was about his soul.
He had to humble himself in order to be clean and restored.

10 Elisha sent a messenger to say to him, "Go, wash yourself seven times in the Jordan, and your flesh will be restored and you will be cleansed."

11 But Naaman went away angry and said, "I thought that he would surely come out to me and stand and call on the name of the LORD his God, wave his hand over the spot and cure me of my leprosy. 12 Are not Abana and Pharpar, the rivers of Damascus, better than any of the waters of Israel? Couldn't I wash in them and be cleansed?" So he turned and went off in a rage.

13 Naaman's servants went to him and said, "My father, if the prophet had told you to do some great thing, would you not have done it? How much more, then, when he tells you, 'Wash and be cleansed'!" 14 So he went down and dipped himself in the Jordan seven times, as the man of God had told him, and his flesh was restored and became clean like that of a young boy.

Father:
I am so Naaman like,,, I've been so prideful
I am aware that I need healing from the inside out..
Those other rivers may "better" but I will go down into that one river you want me to.
I surrender again Father, I surrender just as I did this morning as I wiped the tears from my eyes and tried to calm my fast breathing.
Ohhh how I wish it would have been just you and me in that room...
I wanted to cry at your feet and feel your embrace...
I still do...

Early in the morning

2008-11-12T20:35:00.000-08:00

Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.
Psalm 143:7-9

I had forgotten how was it like to start a day praising God and just laying down all worries and thoughts before Him.

The place where He took me to work is full of people seeking God's face and it is contagious I must say.

Although I was so scared of going there and start a new thing after rejecting two previous opportunities, being in the presence of my Father as a first thing in the morning was the only way in which my my heart stopped beating so fast and my soul could breathe life.

Father:
You saw me cryin today, didn't you?
I cried because part of my soul still misses my old job and the comfort I used to find there.
I cried because I asked you for one more chance to teach and you gave it to me.
I cried because I felt in panic for a second and You came and told me I was welcome in your presence.
I cried because I find adjusting to new things terribly hard.
I cried because ...Oh I need you soo much....

He never makes mistakes

2008-11-11T12:36:00.000-08:00

I received an e-mail from a friend that really likes to send those massive forwards that most of us just don't like.

The subject said : "the gift" so it made me curious. (ohh human nature, always thinking of getting something for ourselves)

I began to read it and it said something like:
"Imagine waking up and seeing a gift right there on your night stand, what would you do?"

Obviously I'd open it !! right away!! it's a gift! no matter from whom it is I would just open it.

Then it said something like we might not always notice but there's always a gift for us every morning, a gift that God places right there for us. Sometimes it may be something we think it's not good enough or it's something we don't think we need bu HE KNOWS BETTER AND HE NEVER MAKES MISTAKES.

Tha mail made think about all those times in which I've thought: "what if...." "wouldn't it be better if..."

Heavenly Father:

Forgive me for questioning your decisions and your gifts.
I wanna accpet them and have that peace in my heart that you know SO MUCH BETTER what I need and what's the best for me.
I'm yours.

about bday and other stuff

2008-11-10T18:19:00.000-08:00

I must must must say thank you to you God for all those people who remembered my birthday but more specially for my boyfriend's sweet details and surprises.
I felt really loved by him.

In my mind I was thinking about how much I'd love to get roses from him and he gave me these beautiful roses with a white one right in the middle. It was so precious.

I can say that this weekend was really great and I give God all the glory for that.

As I woke up this morning that "job issue" came to my mind, I'm holding on the hope that God will answer my prayers in that area of my life.
It's been 3 months since I was moved from my last job and I thank God because my nights are so much calmed now.
That rejection feeling has slowly fade away.

I'm kind of worrie about my sister and a feelings situation she has been dealing with and this quote made me feel full of hope :

"When you say a situation or a person is hopeless, you are slamming the door in the face of God."

B i r t h d a y ....

2008-11-07T23:20:00.000-08:00

yup, Today is my bday.. :)

Dear Heavenly Father:

26 years ago,by a miracle, you let me live....
You heard my mom's prayer and you let me come to this world....
You had a perfect plan and you sent me here...

During these years, I have cried, laugh, been terribly sick, I've learned, traveled, fall in and out of love, made mistakes, touched lives, gain and lost weight, offended people, lost friends, made new ones.... I've read, sung, jumped, walked, seen, smelled, heard, discovered, found new things in myself, met quite interesting people, used my talents, written some poems, stories and journals, I've taken photographs, hugged my students, listened to people, given advice...I've studied teaching and music, I've wandered, found the way again...I've watched lots of tv shows, listened to a million songs, made some bad choices, regret them ....I've been inspired, sad, full of life, dead, useful, useless, joyful, depressed, hurt, tempted and yet in all this I've been under your care even in those years when I didn't know you.

I'm a hundred percent sure that You chose me since eternity and given me a special purpose.
I believe the reason why I did not die as a baby, the reason why that complicated surgery did not kill me, that facial paralisis did not destroyed me , that weird virus in my blood that did not let me walk fade away, WAS YOU and YOUR PERFECT WILL FOR ME.

Thank you for all those good and bad times,
for never leaving me on my own,
for the lessons I've learned...

Thank You for my Family, my friends, and those kids that during 7 years you have let me met and bring something to their lives, and also thank you for him, just You and I know how I feel for him.

I don't know how many years are still to come but I definetely want to live them with YOU, holding your hand, listening to your voice, wrapping myself in your lovely arms, being a light that shines for your glory and having in mind that someday.....I will go back home .......We will meet again FAther, I will see you face to face and I hope hope hope you find me beautiful and acceptable at your sight.

This journey is not easy Father....
But without You I couldn't even make it one second..

I love you
I'm yours

this song is for you:

Si me preguntaras que regalo quiero;
que es lo que prefiero este día especial...
...nadie me conoce como tú; Maestro;
ni mis pensamientos te puedo ocultar.
Y en lo más profundo de mi corazón
hay un gran anhelo, hay una gran pasión.

Quiero este día disfrutar
en tu presencia nada más
y se vuelva realidad
mis deseos de poderte contemplar.
Quiero contigo platicar,
quiero perderme en tu mirar
y olvidarme de quien soy
y perder mi humanidad en tí Señor.
Este día especial
es lo único que quiero;
es lo único que anhelo, mi Jesús.

Dios de oportunidades

2008-11-07T13:27:00.000-08:00

Today at a job interview, I met this woman who looked really smart and full of peace.
After all the questions, stories and school stuff we talked about, she said something that touched my heart:

" God is a God of opportunities"

It made me cry ritght away, because I have been asking God for another chance to prove Him that teaching is my thing and that I can do it with a humble heart because I think I was doing it full of pride.

Then she said that when we make a mistake God doesn't just stare at us with arms crossed. His desire is to lift us up again and teach us how to walk again.

That lady was used by God today in such an amazing way, I could do nothing but cry and thank God for talking to me in the least imaginable ways.

His Word

2008-11-03T15:18:00.000-08:00

I decided to combine my passion for photography with some Bible verses...
and I just love the results :]
(all photos by me)

*sigh

2008-10-30T23:12:00.000-07:00

“Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith"

I should have kept that word in my mind today because I felt so bad and discouraged.

Now, this is me random:

Something is still wrong with my emotions. I should have bought that Joyce Meyer's book " controlling your emotions" but I didn't. I chose "limits in a love relationship" instead.
Well, I should not be complaining about that choice because that book gave me a new perspective on boy-girl relationships.

I've been thinking about my account in live journal... should I continue using it? hmmmm
I will, for a while I guess.

I need a camera for sunday, it's my sister's boyfriend's graduation (is it correct to use two possessives one right after the other? .oh gosh! I love English grammar and I don't know the answer for that!) and I'm his official photographer so I can't let him down,,,no no no , not a chance!

I desperately need a book to read! I've become such a reader lately and I haven't grabbed a book for at least two weeks so THAT is making me feel anxious.

I love that site PICTURES SOCIAL or is it SOCIAL PICTURE ,,, anyways,, it's a site where photographer put up their work and everybody make comments on everybody's photos ...hmmmmmmmm isn't it exciting?! ....ok, if you're not a photographer, IT IS NOT.
Anyway, the thing is that for some reason I'm not able to upload more photos!! so I'm like stressed cuz of that!

This would be a great moment for anyone in the world to give that "you should use Flckr instead" advice and thanks in advance but ............. the truth is that I tried already and it didn't work! There must me something wrong with my computer. My boyfriend, who is a computer expert, says that something is wrong with my internet connection.

You have no idea how fast I typed all that !!
Well

Father,
as you can see I'm anxious and in some sort of apathy state...
would you set my soul at ease?
I wish I was like David, He kept talking to his soul and reminding it about YOUR WONDERS AND YOUR PEACE.
Father, you know that like a month ago I decided to stop any kind of communication with those people who won't bring anything good to my life and today one of those ppl called me.
That scriptured I wrote at the top, came to my mind...

I need to stand firm and resist.
No doubt I can't do it on my own.

My Chosen One

2008-10-29T13:36:00.000-07:00

I chose you before the foundation of the earth to be My princess.

You are royalty even when you don’t feel like a princess.

I will wait for you until you are ready to start living the amazing plans I have for you.

I know you don’t know where to begin or how to become what I’ve called you to be, so let Me teach you day by day.

Start by recognizing who I am: King of kings and Lord of lords.

The Lover of your soul.

When the two of us meet alone together every day, I will show you how to let go of the things in your life that are holding you back from the blessings I want to give you.

Remember, My child, just as I have chosen you, I have given you a choice to represent Me to the world.

If you are willing, I am here to give you all you need to complete your calling.

Love,
Your King and Lord who chose you

"You didn’t choose me. I chose you. I appointed you to go and produce fruit that will last, so that the Father will give you whatever you ask for, using my name." ~ John 15:16

by Sheri Rose at http://www.hisprincess.com/

I'm loving that site.

Every article is simply wonderful.

Lately, when I read something in the bible I know when it's God's special word for me that day.

And misteriously, I run into that scripture twice a day in different places so I see it as God reminding me about the pearl He gave me in a special way...

Today, this is the Pearl for me:

"But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you".

Lover of my soul: Thank you for Your word and Your Holy Spirit who lives In me and is with me.

c h a n g e ?

2008-10-28T19:14:00.000-07:00

CONFESSIONS:

Necesito estudiar acerca de la armadura de Dios, por alguna razon lo escuche dos veces en el mismo dia.
Mi vida esta llena de cambios
Hoy me sorprendi a mi misma .... creo que he madurado.
Me estoy volviendo adicta a los blogs :D
No se por que estoy escribiendo en español :S
Reconozco que estoy emocionada : ] y eso es algo bueno porque casi nada me ha emocionado ultimamente.
Aaaaahhh que delicioso es ese " accomplishment feeling"
Extraño a mi novio. : (

HUMAN FEELINGS ABOUT "CHANGE":

I don't want to change
I need to be sure
I want to feel safe
I am not capable of doing something different

SOMETHING I READ [about change] :

"Many are the numbers of those who remain in dull, stifling, or even hurtful situations, who close ears and eyes to opportunities, who stymie noble character and reject growth rather than risk a terrifying moment that precedes attachment and follows letting go."

Father:

I'm a little bit scared about this change, it must be because lately in my life I haven't been able to choose the changes, they have just come along my way and I have found myself swimming hard so I d0n't drawn in that big ocean of confussion that those changes have brought me.

Let me be strong and have courage.

Let me believe you're with me all the days of my life.

Daddy's little girl

2008-10-27T23:16:00.000-07:00

One of the things I'm loving the most now is photography. I love how every moment can be captured and how emotions travel through time.
Yesterday I was with my family and my boyfriend watching some soccer teams.

There were some children around us and they instantly captured my attention, all adults were so interested in seeing their favorite team win but the kids were just playing with each other, laughing, eating some ice cream and ocasionally hugging each other.

It make me think about my childhood. I can't say it was perfect because in fact it was so far from perfection. I always try to keep the good memories alive and let the ones that hurt me vanish.

Now, at my 20's ... I can say that I'm still a child and I don't say it as in the corny phrase that states "everyone's a child in the inside" but I say it because I TRULY act like one sometimes... Sometimes I'm stubborn, disobedient, sometimes I fall trying to walk at my own pace, I break things, I act with lack of wisdom, I cry when I don't want what I want when I want it.... and it all makes me think about how MY HEAVENLY FATHER sees me...

what does he think of me when I'm like that?
does it bring discontenment to His heart?
What discipline is applying now to my life? (cuz He is INDEED doing it)
What lessons am I missing to learn?

As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
Psalm 103:12-14

Dear Father:

I'm aware of my childish actions, my failures, my unmature thoughts and I ask you to take me in your arms.

I don't know how to walk anymore, I'm afraid to fall, I'm afraid to face the world, I'm afraid of the new beginning that is coming to my life.

I wanna be a child in the good way..... innocent, loving, joyful.... but I wanna do it IN YOU.

Let your light shine on me.

Have compassion of me and help me get through this desert.

I'm yours alone and I know that I can't do anything without you.

I wanna be your girl in whom you delight yourself.

I wanna be someone you're proud of.

I wanna be YOUR CHILD.

His Grace

2008-10-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

1But Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. 2At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. 3The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4and said to Jesus, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" 6They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.

But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." 8Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

9At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10Jesus straightened up and asked her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?"

11"No one, sir," she said.
"Then neither do I condemn you," Jesus declared. "Go now and leave your life of sin."

Just like these men who brought this woman before Jesus, we all find easier to see someone else's sin rather than ours

It is so easy to point them out

yet we don't see what we've done wrong.

I don't want to be like that anymore because I've

found myself in that woman's position

blamed by a million eyes

pointed out by a million fingers

including my own.

Then neither do I condemn you

such amazing words are so hard to believe for my

human nature

for my guilty soul

yet He reminds me the beauty of His Grace

How He promised not to set His eyes on

those sins.

I simply don't deserve it.

and that's why it's called GRACE

so true so pure

so hard to understand

that's His Grace.

Savior of mine:

I don't deserve your grace yet I'm so grateful to have it.

I know I've done wrong

I have offended you

I have let you down

I ask you to see me just as you saw that woman

with eyes full of compassion

and love.

Help me to erase those sins from my memory just

as You have erase them all from yours.

Let me know I have your forgiveness or my soul

will consume.

Let it be spring again

2008-10-22T23:28:00.000-07:00

OHH how much I dislike rainy days
they make me feel sad
ok, rain is seen as a blessing but I do prefer spring
when the flowers bloom and sun shines so bright
it makes me smile and feel alive.

I found this amazing song by Lanae Hale, her voice is just awesome and these lyrics .... are just what I'd sing right now...
http://www.myspace.com/lanaehale

close your eyes and count to
three

this could not be happening

make a note of every
wrong turn taken

so regression
takes it’s toll your still so
young but feel so old

your life is wearing like a broken bound

november leaves
wont fall cause december stole
them all Iguess it’s all my
fault I fell frozen one season
please give me one more chance
i know i don’t deserve it

I swear
i wont forget if you’d just let
it be spring again

so you
try to make a sound

only whispers come out as the tears begin to
trace your skin

let your eyes
caress the sky

endure another
sleepless night as you retrace
the steps that brought you so far
away

it’s all out of my hands now

True Healing

2008-10-18T19:38:00.000-07:00

Today, I went to this event invited by one of the mentors of LIBRES EN CRISTO http://www.libresencristo.org/. It was an exclusive meeting for single women and I came home truly grateful to have attended.

This was what they talked about:

30In reply Jesus said: "A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, took him to an inn and took care of him. 35The next day he took out two silver coins and gave them to the innkeeper. 'Look after him,' he said, 'and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.

Obviously each one of us have been hurt in one way or another either emotionallly or physically so we find ourselves exactly in the same position as this man who went to Jericho and we see how people pass us by, in our desperation we start to aks for help in any place possible expecting other people to provide the healing that we need.

Jesus is the good samaritan who won't just pass us by, he will stop and bandage our wounds, he will pour his love in our hearts to restore our health.

He already paid the price for our freedom, He died in order for us to be alive.

NO, we won't ever find love like this in the entire universe or history of earth. He has no comparison at all.

Some other words that someone said today and I decided to attach them to my heart for ever is : GOD KNOWS YOUR PAIN, HE'S SEEN YOU CRIED. WHEN YOU'VE BEEN HURT, HE'S BEEN HURT AS WELL AND HE'S SEEN YOUR TEARS AND EVEN CRIED RIGHT THERE WITH YOU.

Beloved of mine:

After all you've done the least that I can do is live my life in every part only to please You.

Today I forgave those who hurt me so much and I ask you to heal my heart completely in the amazing way that only YOU can.

My Journal

2008-10-15T22:51:00.000-07:00

When I was a teenager my English teacher gave me the assignment of keeping a journal in order to practice my writing, put my thoughts in order and somehow leave my thoughst out.

I did it, I started to write on that notebook every single day and she was proud of me. Of course I let her read it because I knew I could trust her and besides, she had to check my grammar and spelling.

As the year went by, I became addicted to it. I filled like 5 notebooks! yes,, 5 notebooks.

When I was born again, I decided to throw them all away because there were some experiences there that I did not want to have in mind anymore. I think I did a good thing but it woud be nice to take a look at those pages now that I'm in my twenties and have grown in so many ways.

Well that's not the end of my journals... In 2006, during a Leaders' conference in a church, I saw this beautiful notebook and I had this I-wanna-start-a-journal-feeling so I bought it and my best friend encouraged me to do it. (that's what friends are for )

So, I took a pen in my hand and made a decision... I thought, ok, if I'm gonna have a journal again, I want to include God in this, I wanna make him part of it like He was my BEst Friend and so I did.

EVery journal entry would start with the words: HEAVENLY FATHER.....

and, literally I could feel how He was reading all my words, seeing all my thoughts and the way I was putting them in a notebook for HIM.

There were times in which I was feeling sad and I could feel how He stopped my hand from writing and wrapped me in his loving arms.

For some reason, I stopped writing.

I began a livejournal, which lets me put my thoughts out but it's not the same.

and this blog, I decided to always bring Him INTO the picture of every entry here but THAT NOTEBOOK HAS SOMETHING SPECIAL . IT IS A WITNESS OF HIS MERCY, LOVE, KINDNESS AND HOW HE HAS LED ME IN THIS LIFE, THE ILLNESS HE TOOK FROM ME, THE DREAMS HE MADE COME TRUE, THE LAUGHTER HE BROUGHT, THE GOALS HE MADE ME REACH....

so, today I decided to write in my journal again, I know that by doing so my relationship with Him will be even better (the way it used to be) and He will read my words and I will read HIS WORD, just as it was meant to be from the beginning.

All in all

2008-10-14T16:47:00.000-07:00

Last night after checking my mail, saying hi to a few people on line, upload some photos of a friend's birthday party and saying good night to my boyfriend I started feeling strangenly sad and anxious.
I stood up and started walking around the room trying to get to the core of this "feeling".
I turned off the computer and grabbed a Bible.
I opened it and without even reading a line, tears filled my eyes and I started to talk to HIM
I told HIm exactly how I felt and how in that moment and in that instant I could realize why I was feeling the way I was feeling.

My soul cried to Him.
I asked Him not to turn his back on me because that would mean nothing but dead to me.
I simply surrendered my whole being.

Then, I read these words that made me cry:

Fear not

I have been with you and

I always will

I'm creating a new thing for you

water in the desert.

You will sing in joy again.

Fear not.

I firmly believe that He touched my heart last night, He was trying to show me that all things on earth will never satisfy my soul the way He Does.
Living a beautiful love story which is every girl's dream is not enough.
Having Him in control is what brings the true joy to the heart.

I don't want to be led by my feelings or emotions, I want to be led by the longing to glorify My Lord.

IF JESUS IS NOT MY ALL IN ALL

ALL TEMPORARY FULLFILLMENT FADES AND THE

DISCONTENMENT RETURNS WITH EVERN GREATER FORCE.

Don't want to make you small

2008-10-08T16:20:00.000-07:00

JJ heller is one of my favorite singers
and this song makes me smile and dream about my lovely Savior
He who knows me and loves me still..

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Cardboard cutouts on the floor
People wish that you were more like what they wanted you to be
Eventually they won’t have much of you at all in their theology
The walls are closing in on you
You cannot be contained at all

I don’t want to make you small
I don’t want to fit you in my pocket
A cross around my throat
You are brighter than the sun
You’re closer than the tiny thoughts I have of you
But I could never fathom you at all

Broken moldings all around
Broken people hit the ground
When they discover that you’re not here for our benefit
You love in spite of us
You use the least of us to prove the strong aren’t really strong at all

what a beautiful thing

2008-10-03T22:09:00.000-07:00

I have always thought that love is not a feeling, is not something temporary. It is something that endures for ever. It's absolutely pure, it is not selfish. It is a sacrifice sometimes but at the end it will resist all things to see the loved person as happy as it could be.

That's why I truly believe LOVE comes from God, He is the biggest proof of Love by giving Himself and by making such a great sacrifice.

And then, we have mothers' love...ohh wow these human beings are beyond any description that can be made by any human being. I mean, there's no language or right words to talk about it.

Mothers are like the most God alike love on earth.

Then, I'd dare to mention fathers' and siblings' love.

Then, Teachers' love.

Then, friends' love, of course I think women can feel it in a greater way than men.

and at last, I have to mention

a couple's love

I thought I had been as much in love as a person can be but I guess I was wrong, cuz with this guy, I'm finding new things each day, I look up to him, I wanna see him happy, I wanna see Him walking with God and I know God has a great purpose for him and it makes me feel scared at times. I can see and feel how much God loves him

and ohhh my.......I'm so grateful to God for this man, for his beautiful heart and soul.

Lord I want you to be at the throne of my heart

you know it

but you also know how deeply in love I am with this man.

Thank you

for that.

FROM THERE

2008-09-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.

While reading this passage, I thought about how amazing this is
if you think about "there" related to your own situation...
"there" could be illness, sadness, depression, emptiness, sin... from where ever we are, we can surely call on Him and he will be there.

Sometimes the sin within us starts to tell us that God will never be found again, but it is an absolute lie. I found it hard to belive it myself but He is not a liar, and if He says something so loving so powerful, I'm sure it's true.

Isn't His mercy just A MA ZING !?

Living Water

2008-09-27T13:55:00.000-07:00

"My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me,
the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
broken cisterns that cannot hold water.

I'm sure all of us have wondered why we are always unsatisfied with all things.
NO matter how many people we're sorrounded of , or big our professional success is, not even how well our family is going right now or if our love relationship seems perfect.

There's always something empty in our hearts.
Thres's this space waiting to be filled, and that can only be filled with THE LIVING WATER OF GOD.
I always identified myself with that lady Jesus found <>

7When a Samaritan woman came to draw water, Jesus said to her, "Will you give me a drink?" 8(His disciples had gone into the town to buy food.)

9The Samaritan woman said to him, "You are a Jew and I am a Samaritan woman. How can you ask me for a drink?" (For Jews do not associate with Samaritans.[a])

10Jesus answered her, "If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water."

11"Sir," the woman said, "you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water? 12Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?"

13Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

15The woman said to him, "Sir, give me this water so that I won't get thirsty and have to keep coming here to draw water."

16He told her, "Go, call your husband and come back."

17"I have no husband," she replied.

Jesus said to her, "You are right when you say you have no husband. 18The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true."

She had been in many wrong sources, searching that water, she had been with several people trying to feel his heart WHOLE and she had failed. It was only when she had Jesus in front of him that she realized she had been wrong and wandering.

I need,
WE all need,
to let Jesus fill our jars.
from that water that can really satisfy our souls.

Romans

2008-09-26T22:53:00.000-07:00

" I say to everyone among you not to think of yourself more highly than you ought to think... do not claim to be wiser than you are" Twelfth chapter of Romans.

I should have written this, yesterday because it was yesterday that it crash into my head and I started to think how full of pride I am most of the time, and how the situations and the things I've learned have made me think more highly about myself.

I think that one of the reasons why I lost the job I loved so much, was that God wanted to work on my pride, cause I had everything figured out. I knew how to do all things, I was pretty convinced that I was an A+ teacher. I had nothing to worry about so I was not depending on God to do all things.

I was depending on my skills ONLY.

It is not a bad thing to be self confident but when you think you've got it all under control and think you can do better than anyone, then you're saying that you don't need God to interfer in your job.

You're telling Him how much you DON'T need him.
I guessed I did it.
and I regret it.

This kind of soundtrack

2008-09-24T19:54:00.000-07:00

:D
Juno's soundtrack..
BEST EVER!!
ok, maybe not ever, but I gotta give it the credit it deserves!
It wouldn't be such a great movie without those songs. I knew it right from the beginning, from the very moment I heard Barry Louis Polisar's voice, I thought ok.. the soundtrak will be fun :D
and it was!
ok, enough about the soundtrack..
Juno simply rocks! she's the kind of girl we all want to be at some point of our lives. I had never seen a teenager dealing with pregnacy and life itself, the way she did.
I'm gonna have to put this movie in my list of favorite movies :D

and this is another proof

2008-09-24T02:13:00.000-07:00

A month ago, I started this amazing adventure
How blessed I feel to have a man like him by my side.
I know that maybe a month is not enough time to say that you love somebody but there's something magical about him, about all this, something that soothes my soul and mind.
Ohh I made this for him :D
I'm not a photoshop expert so it took more time than it seems.
:D

powerful words

2008-09-22T20:41:00.000-07:00

"Cuando dejamos de mirarnos a nosotros mismos con nuestras imperfecciones, pecados y desesperanza y nos volvemos al Señor Jesús y vemos y dependemos de Su poder y perfección es cuando podemos esperar que comience la transformación."

Why Personal Legend

2008-09-22T17:26:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna explain it before I forget.

The tittle of the blog is, as it can be seen, Personal Legend. I chose this name based on a book that I'm reading called "El alquimista".

This book is really inspiring and it's mainly about the journey to follow our dreams and how our personal legend is that road which leads us to accomplish what we want.

The Personal Legend is not only that moment of victory and triumph, but also those lessons we learned through the way and how life then test our learning then.

It also mentions that our personal legend is our mission on earth. I used to have it clear, now I don't anymore but I'm sure that I will find my way again and God will show me the path that I need to follow.

He's been doing it I think, in very unique ways.

Personally I don't believe in all that "sings" stuff and mystical tales on how God speaks to us but when He uses something to talk to me, I can really feel it and I know deep within my heart that He is behind everything.

I'd dare to say that I'm right in the middle of a process that will lead me back to Him again.

It's been painful, weird and hard but now I think I'm starting to understand what He is trying to say.

During these two months, at first I felt full of questions about what is special about the heart of a woman and He sent to my hands that amazing book "CAPTIVATING"

Then, I met someone and I began falling in love with him but this wall I had built wouldn't let him in. He put in my hands "By the River Piedra I sat down and wept" and again I was really impressed on how that book really illustrates the exact things I was feeling.

And He keeps doing things like this.

I need and I want to have my eyes and ears opened to whatever He wants to say to me.

I keep failing, I keep being so unperfect but something in my heart is different. I feel the thirst for his presence again.

so... for the third time in a row

2008-09-19T23:17:00.000-07:00

Here's the thing
I'm that type of person who is addicted to Internet :D
So I do have my own myspace, photoblog, livejournal, facebook, hi5, flixster,friendster,picturesocial ........and these are the only ones that I can think of right now.
And I have tried to have a blog here twice already and then I don't know why I just quit :S

Hopefully, this time I will make it :D

ohh wait wait.. some of those sites I use them to publish my "aspiring photographer" work, some others to make friends and the others to express my feelings and thoughts ...

I'd like to have a blog dedicated the one and only God
who allows me to do all things I do
So this blog will be like a mixture of things, but always trying to find what God is trying to tell me with all of that . :D